this blog is OVER!!!!!!!!

hi everyone, i am sleepy

Since my mom is so anxious for me to blog...(she probably isn't really but it still makes me feel special)...

I figured I'd just write something for the sake of having written something.

Today was silly. I was anxious for some reason when I got home from school, and I was talking to my friend on Facebook and then I got even more anxious. I decided that I should take a walk to clear my head, and I went by myself even though my friend asked if he could come too. That made me feel mean, but that would have made me explode with anxiety.

It's kind of difficult to explain why certain things make you nervous. Sometimes you don't want to see someone, but not because you're angry with him; maybe you're afraid you'll do something wrong or you think he has secret motives or even just being with other people feels wrong. Sometimes I don't so much feel anxious as I feel like something is out of place, horribly out of place, and that's what causes the apprehension. So I suppose taking a walk with anyone but myself felt out of place at the time.

I'm nervous because this weekend I'm going to two near-consecutive social gatherings, one on Friday and the other on Saturday. That feels nervous.

I didn't give my mom a hug before bed; that feels nervous.

It's so weird.

It's eleven o' two and I write things that don't make sense when I am tired even though it's not even midnight yet. This keyboard is so tiny. I have a netbook and my typing is all weird on a normal computer because I'm used to this shrunken keyboard now.

oh no

I can practically see my IQ points dropping when I read my old posts.

arbitrary update

Sometimes I'm a little nervous about writing here because of what happened to my mom. There was a broad who started following her around on the internet and she had to abscond with her life story. My own blog isn't so personal and I hardly ever update because I keep a real-life journal to write exactly what I want to rather than omit details, hide things I don't want people to know...maybe I'll start a new blog someday and not make my identity so...available.

But we all know that won't happen.

So...stuff that's happening.

I'm all set for when I'm sixteen, I guess. When we're eligible, my friend says he wants a relationship with me, which is pretty exciting but also really scary. I'm so little.

I got pretty decent grades (4.0 on each) these past two terms, so I guess my freshman year is progressing smoothly. I'm just terrified to take my first geography class tomorrow because of the new semester. I went to computer technology today and I'm honestly not very worried about that class. The teacher said that if we can get consistent 40 WMPs on Microtype then we needn't be concerned with our typing skills. I average somewhere between 50 and 60, so I'm set as far as typing is concerned. He's going to have us do things like spreadsheets and Power Points and Word documents. It will be a tedious class, but he says he doesn't really teach, he just "plays". So at least I have a relaxation period at the end of every odd day!

But...geography... :(

So, anyway, I'm very healthy now. I haven't thrown up since that last entry at all. I'm SO HEALTHY IT'S FRICKIN AWESOME

My mom wants me to keep blogging. Apparently I'm "funny"? I don't really think so, but I guess I'll keep going to make my mom proud. That's all that matters to me, really! MOM THIS IS LIEK A BIG SHOUTOUT TO YOU! I LOVE YOU AND PLEASE BE PROUD OF ME THAT WOULD BE SO COOL.

--Sunny OUT--

it can only get better from here (hopefully)

Katy bookmarked my blog, so I figured I might post a bit before this thing is officially dead. (It kind of already is dead. It's like a zombieblog now. Freakin' undead zombieblog crap being spewed all over the poor little internet up in here.)

Well, it's 2012 now. I'm going to be writing 2011 for awhile on my school papers, but that's only to be expected. I'm still not used to 2011.

I went to my first New Year's Eve dance on...Saturday...I think. I'm all messed up chronologically. When I got home and went to bed 'round one in the morning, I was nauseous all night. Stepdad came in in the morning and told me I ought to get up and prepare for church. I felt super lethargic and couldn't walk. I lumbered upstairs, panting heavily because I couldn't seem to gather enough oxygen to function properly. I asked Mom to take my temperature, see if I was hot. She said I was pretty cold, actually. So I went back to bed.

I decided to have some water and break my fast (it was the first Sunday of the month) when I woke up again at noon, figuring by some stupid stroke of logic that hydration would make me feel better. I had a feeling that I shouldn't be drinking any water, but I did anyway; I had two whole glasses! I fell asleep again, feeling a little refreshed by the water.

Next second (not literally the next second, it just felt like that. I'm messed up time-wise right now) I'm sitting up and vomiting what seems to be all of the water in my body. Granted, 70% of your body is composed of water, and 70% of me doesn't seem to be missing, so it probably wasn't all the water. But it was gross. I cried out like an upset toddler and Mom came to help me and I don't want to relay the rest. Bleeeeech. So gross.

I slept through the majority of the day and the rest of the night. Ethan's alarm clock started screaming (not joking, his alarm clock IS screamo music) at 5:17 in the morning and I was awake for three hours. I slept again till noon and now I'm sitting here functioning on three slices of toast Mom made for me. Strangely enough, I don't feel particularly hungry. I don't want to eat. This is weird for me.

Oh, and I'm pretty sure my stomach bile dissolved a good portion of the skin in my mouth. It keeps flaking off. Bluuuuuuuuuuuuh.

I don't know how I got sick. I was kind of humoring the idea that someone spiked the water at the New Year's dance one...two nights ago and that I was having a hangover. But that's presumably ridiculous...we don't drink alcohol...but I thought it was funny. Seriously, how did I get so blllllllaaaaarfrrrf?

(Found this picture on Tumblr. Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year.)